Tuesday, 14 October 2025 @ 2:05 am
0 stareslately, i feel like i don’t have the luxury of time. everything keeps moving: people, days, the quiet hours that slip away before i notice. yet here i am, standing still. i keep running into crossroads, thinking one path might lead me forward, but somehow, each one circles back to the places i’ve already been.
sometimes i revisit my past, retracing steps like a detective trying to find where the story went wrong. it feels like i’ve been here before, with different faces, different stories, but the same thing repackaged. i wonder if i missed something in between: a moment, a sign, a truth that could’ve spared me the ache of learning everything the hard way.
i keep thinking i’ve grown past it, that i’ve learned what i needed to. was there some other lesson i was supposed to learn, some sign i was meant to see?
so then the roads blur again. maybe that’s just what healing really is: the endless circling back until you finally stop (i mean, really stop) repeating the same patterns.
but was it really my fault being born as my mother's daughter? the world is a dangerous place for a hopeless romantic.
now i have to spend my whole life unlearning it.. is somebody gonna match my freak?
